Saturday was the night of the big close moon and yesterday was the day of the wide blue sky. So maybe today, with snow falling again, it makes sense to see the weekend for what it was: a window of.. can I call it clarity after that crazy week I put in last week?
My friend Bobbie tells me I should stay away from all ‘screens’ one day a week and I actually did sort of do that this past weekend. I took a lot of pictures and read sections of the five or six books I’ve got going and fretted about the fact that we’re bombing another country. What I didn’t do is remain chained to my laptop, beaming my faint message like E.T. out to the vast and empty skies.
We had driven to our summer place partly to get out of the way of our new housemates as they settled in at our house – it seemed the kind thing to do – and it was beneficial to us as well. Certainly seeing that moon rise over a lake would clear anyone’s vision.
I’m working hard at figuring out why I pack so much ‘doing’ into my days and will report on that once I’m done. But at 11 last night when I turned out my light and saw the glow from that nice fat moon, a poem came into my mind. Mary Oliver’s “The Moths” which I copy here as if it were prose. Read it aloud in as fast and breathless a way possible and see if you don’t identify with the speaker at all. I know I do:
There’s a kind of white moth, I don’t know what kind, that glimmers, it does, in the daylight, in mid-May in the forest, just as the pink moccasin flowers are rising. If you notice anything, it leads you to notice more and more. And anyway I was so full of energy. I was always running around, looking at this and that. If I stopped, the pain was unbearable, If I stopped and thought, maybe the world can’t be saved, The pain was unbearable. Finally, I had noticed enough. All around me in the forest the white moths floated. How long do they live, fluttering in and out of the shadows? ‘You aren’t much’, I said one day to my reflection in a green pond, and grinned. The wings of the moths catch the sunlight and burn so brightly, At night, sometimes, they slip between the pink lobes of the moccasin flowers and lie there until dawn, motionless in those dark halls of honey.
Rushing around or sitting motionless, we can all be glad of this: spring began last night and even the coldest, thickest ice is cashing in its chips s and starting to liquidate.